I cried tears... not the kind that softly stream down your
face like you see artfully caught by the cinematic eye of a film director
on-camera; but the hard sob purge or what is known today as the “ugly cry.”
My father was angry.
His face was red, a vein was pulsating at the side of his brow.. at a rapid rate that could not keep up to the tempo of any song I could hear on my AM/FM radio.
He had
presented calculus math equation in front of me to dissect and solve out of his
frustration that public school was introducing “new math.” He had wondered ‘what the #*!& had happened to old math as there was nothing wrong
with old math, so why did they have to invent ‘new math?”
To his disappointment, I could not solve his old math
calculus question. I was crying because I could not be the solution to the
problem, nor solve the problem itself.
I was six years-old and had not yet even seen calculus,
geometry, nor algebra along my pathway. We
were doing long division… with crayons, no less. My teacher’s syllabus that
year was not going to include solely a math focus to begin to address my father’s
equation as an option to solve. He was going to have to accept this fact.
It
was second grade. Aside from encouraging us to advance our reading, spelling
and cursive writing, we would also learn about self-expression through
decoupage, learn plant propagation, learn how to braid – and yes…. (gross
alert) learn about anatomy by dissecting a dead cat brought in by a Veterinarian,
pass around his vein, and touch his heart.
I felt like a failure in some way, even though my not being
able to solve his equation at age six, was not my fault. I wanted to make him
happy, but we had reached an impasse because not able to comply with his
expectation, request, or ‘ideal.’
At the time, while he was frustrated at the fact new math
entered the picture and things had not remained the same as back in ‘his day;’
and I was frustrated with the fact he was frustrated with me that I could not
solve his equation – we solved a different problem – one of communication.
This was 3D problem-solving…. Or was it? Was it a magic carpet ride into the 5D to
rise above said problem to see that the problem had nothing to do with the math
equation at all?
Though I had not yet identified what 3D earthly plane and 5D
spiritual realm flotation was in order to gain perspective on solving a
problem, through my ugly cry, my child’s ‘higher-self’ was able to SEE that neither
of us really cared about the math equation.
We were needing a deeper understanding to the ROOT CAUSE of what was
really at hand.
I asked my father what he was so ‘mad about’ and if he was
mad at the thought he saw me as a stupid child.
He wasn’t mad about my not being able to solve the math equation, nor
saw me that way, but rather was mad at the fact old ways of doing things could
not be satisfactory, as if the ‘system’ had to go fix what wasn’t broken. Old
math worked fine in his eyes. While the invention of calculators also first
ticked him off (he felt it would create laziness among humans), he eventually
adapted with the change and suddenly having a calculator was something he loved
having. It sure beats the abacus, eh?
This childhood flashback is just one example I present to
you for pedestrian fundamental understanding of how the 3D and the 5D floating
above a situation can be helpful in the simplest of things, including a
misunderstanding as a bridge to communication.
We both learned something that day. For starters, I learned tissue boxes were not
infinite magic pop-ups in endless supply. :D
However, while my six-year-old brain had not yet processed how this 3D
& 5D trip would be oh-so-useful later, I would see that there were so many
sides to every issue beyond the tissue (haha) and life would have its own
infinite opportunities to learn this on a deeper level. For my father, I saw that he was struggling
with change, things out of his control, frustration was surfacing bursting
through his emotions, in contrast to his normal graceful, calm, stable exterior
because he needed to be addressed through this painful process of acceptance.
In turn, I was being made to see that it was not up to me to solve the calculus
equation in order to validate his struggle with his own acceptance of change.
For every ‘problem’ – there exists something more than the
surface problem. It is here I ask you to ponder the following for your own soul
exploration:
- · Do you believe that there is a solution to every problem?
- · What is your earliest recollection/memory of 3D and 5D from your childhood?
- · Do you think adults and children have conflicting ideas about problem-solving?
- · Have you ever found yourself grappling with a “quick-fix” temporary solution vs. a deeper one?
- · Are problems at work harder to solve because people are reactive?
- · What was the first ‘problem’ you can recall that wassolved at school?
- · How many times have you taken time to dive deep to find the root cause of an issue?
- · What problems do you have that seem to linger?
- · Where do you still lack communication/understanding in your own problem solving?
- · What are your default ways of problem-solving and what are the gems you have uncovered that you did not expect in your everyday problem solving?
Work through these questions to discover how you can step up
your own game in how you approach your everyday problem-solving and see how
many of these questions you can answer as you expand your mind and your
consciousness floating between 3D and 5D.
When you’re ready… we can dig a little deeper here in this 12 minute audio: (click the picture)
With all that said…….(both in blog and audio) – I know that sometimes
life can be both challenging and hard to work through.
We humans/souls can get stuck in the ‘in-between’ and at
times feel misunderstood, sometimes feel invisible and that our problems may at
times feel insurmountable.
While all of the above takes great practice and reinvention
through a series of exercises to create and develop new habits, even if you
think you’ve mastered certain problem-solving skills, you may run across
something in your path that will test you.
Whether your human sees it as a problem, your soul sees
something as a challenge and your higher self may see something as an ‘opportunity’
to expand, there is that space where we may feel caught in what is known as the
‘in-between.’
Navigating this space is not easy. While I would like to say that it gets
easier, that can only be true if you decide to stay in one place as a
human. However, we as souls navigate and
constantly change as energy --- daily, and sometimes can feel like ships
passing missing ports to problem-solve on the same level or same page with
other humans. It’s just life.
There is
always a chance to challenge ourselves to rise.
There is always a chance to find our way to opportunities to grow,
expand, shape-shift and change.
It may appear at times that the higher you ascend into the
realm of higher consciousness and awareness, that it becomes more challenging
to survive on the earthly plane with those closed off to growth, expansion or
seeing the same “challenges” and “opportunities” as you to address problem-solving
the same way.
For most humans “stuck” in
ego mode… they feel there is only one way, and that is to want to always be ‘right’
or have their point of view on a problem/solution to be the only way.
It is here, Lovely Souls that I encourage you to stay strong. It is here you can SEE that because they
choose this path, this does NOT make your 4D or 5D perception wrong, just
because they wish to be right.
You do not need to dim your light (ever) in
order to problem-solve, you can resolve a problem staying true to who you are,
but choosing to see the ROOT of the problem rather than the surface-level
Band-Aid solution in order to deal with the problem at hand.
Everyone will eventually work through their
own ideas about their approach, and most who choose to stay stuck will find
that how they handle the idea to always want to be right, will not work in the
long run. It is when we collectively
work together to see the light, problems find a way to dissipate when we allow
and invite communication to be the answer.
While my six-year-old self could not articulate all that I just
said, she knew in her heart that asking the question to see what her father was
really mad about could get to the core of the issue. From here, both could grow as a result to
rise to the challenge, see new perspectives and also find the opportunity to
grow as a result.
No math equation could demonstrate what was achieved in any
calculation, nor solve the root number all on its own. :D
Simply put, a solution and resolution all adds up to
something greater than the initial equation!
Namaste.
