Ambition, motivation, initiative, and drive… these are beautiful
qualities to have deep within your soul.
While everyone is different, possessing varied levels of the above,
there are times when your own vehicle is stalled in the traffic lane of life,
where you may feel frustrated, restless, or even lost.
Is this normal, you ask? Yes.
Is there a fix for this? Yes.
The hardest lesson learned for anyone who struggles with patience,
timing, trust, or the lagging energy, which surrounds one’s deepest desires to
move things forward, is dealing with the groundless space of trying to hit the
ground running.
In other words, if your feet are passionately trying to run, but you are
being catapulted onto a cloud to gain perspective – you are in a human/soul
battle with trying to make things happen vs. allowing the Universe to naturally
unfold for you, what will happen.
Does this mean we are not in control of our destiny?
Yes and no. Like books that are written that cannot be unwritten,
there is a pathway of the Divine to befriend, comprehend, and gain compassion
toward.
Your human may have forgotten this key factor, in that your own
compassion toward a situation is for you to gain more clarity and wisdom, than
without the stall on the side of the road.
Why is this necessary to understand?
The stall/wait is for greater purpose. We may not see why this is
so until we are on the other sides of the situation in flashback retrospect
20/20 vision hindsight, but the greater purpose always has a purpose.
If you journal, you have come to know this place/space in time
well. You can flip back a week, a month, or even a year or more and see
that “at the time” where you sat to think/feel and believe your situation was
one way, in reality coming out if it, there was something happening for the
bigger picture.
Quite often, we get to a place of forgetting the bigger picture.
Sometimes it is logistically; sometimes it is planning and spatial
reasoning. Sometimes it is to bring our awareness to the forefront, and
other times, we are simply to rest in any/all obstacles and face them head on
to grow.
I learned this at age 15 in a very unconventional way, but, I learned
this lesson not just by the Universe, but also by my own hand
(literally).
Back in my sophomore year in high school, I wanted to create a gift for
my entire school’s Homecoming game. I decided to paint a poster to
celebrate our theme of World of Animation.
This sounds simple, right.
First, let me say – up until this point, I had never even drawn anything
in animation.
Second, it came to me in a dream to do. I had no formal practice
in doing the magnitude of this animated character dream, and because materials
were expensive, I could not afford at the time to keep getting new supplies if
I screwed up to start over.
Third, I had one week before Homecoming to complete this. Ha, no
pressure.
Fourth, Well, you may think I just painted one poster.
Yes, this is true, but I decided to freehand paint a poster that ended
up being EIGHTEEN FEET long/tall.
The finished poster featured animated characters from Disney (Mickey,
Minnie, Huey, Dewy, Louie, Chip, Dale, Dumbo, Jiminy Cricket & Flower
from Bambi), Hanna Barbera (Snagglepuss, Pebbles, Bam, Dino), Peanuts - Charles Schultz (Snoopy),
Jim Davis (Garfield), AA Milne (Pooh), Art Clokey (Gumby), Jim Henson (Kermit),
and Johnny Gruelle (Raggedy Ann) in ONE poster, united together.
The poster took over my parents’ living room. That was the initial
commitment. However, as the picture kept getting bigger and bigger – it
later took over the entire den, blocking any entry or exit from the front door
of the house as paint dried.
While I did not foresee this coming, as it presented a dilemma at the
time, I did not need to wrench my gut nor bang my head against the wall in
finding the solution, the solution that seemed to magically appear due to my
intention to give the school a gift.
I know… you may think this is strange – but this is where my heart
resided. This was my pure heart intention and truth – and I had to trust that:
A) I would actually find a way to
logistically FINISH the poster.
B) There would be room for it to
expand.
C) It would dry in time for me to
roll up.
D) There would be a way to
actually transport the poster to school from my home
E) Once it got there, that it
would not be ruined.
F) After I unrolled it, not only
would it still be in tact but – err… somehow, some way there would be a way to
put it up on the basketball gym wall for the assembly.
This poster was painted on butcher paper.
As a cheerleader, our school had access to butcher paper weekly for the
football players to run through, as we made signs every week.
Nevertheless, keep in mind – the posters we had done were more of a “Go
Team” type of endeavor… not full-blown animated characters that were familiar
to the masses that I committed myself to creating.
However, this was a gift and I was on my own. Finding a butcher
shop where I could purchase paper that was of the same thickness, durability
and quality to stand up to poster paint was the first step even if my brain had
not yet processed the challenge before taking on the actualizing challenge of
my brain to freehand paint the poster.
This was my first obstacle. How determined was I? Well, I
eventually found the paper – and it was not an easy task, because if you go to
your butcher and ask to purchase an entire roll of paper instead of meat, well
– you may get a few funny looks, questions and much resistance.
Same was said for all the paint and masking tape I had to purchase in
bulk, since I was a teen and not an art teacher, trying to do this entire
transaction alone – not with a group or anyone that would help my story to
actually ‘make sense’ to be purchasing these said materials.
Needless to say, A-F was accomplished. Yes, the poster had
to be secured to the roof of my car to get to the school, luckily, I was not
pulled over, nor did it rain – but it got there, safely in one piece.
It took an entire bulk roll of paper, two full sets of poster paint,
eleven rolls of masking tape to assemble the poster itself and to secure, and a
12 foot ladder with our 6’9” basketball center standing at the very top to
attach it on the wall.
Yes, the football team ran through it. Only when it came time for
them to do so – did I realize I should have made the painting horizontal
instead of vertical for field shots.
However, if looking at the bigger picture, of the bigger poster – the
original intent to create spirit, give a gift from my pure place and what it
accomplished at the time in human connection, seeing that all characters in the
world (animated or not) could unite for the purpose of spirit.
Well, I guess you could say all is well, all was done, and any/all
stalls or challenges that I had in the process, as I processed it, were for
highest, greatest good.
How we as humans look at the idea of trying to hit the ground running,
while occasional stalls or obstacles present themselves is all relative to the
bigger picture.
At the time you face them, you may feel frustrated or stuck, but in the
end you see that taking the time to go through them, working through the
opportunities provide deeper insight to not lose sight of the bigger picture
you have in your heart.
As Jiminy Cricket says… “If your heart is in your dream, no
request is too extreme.”
I rather live by these words when it comes to checking back in with my
heart’s pure intention.
If it serves the greater good to do something for the purpose of spirit,
larger than the dream I envision from the initial picture, driving this link
forward will resolve itself in the right timing for it to be realized from its
initial intent.
My hope is that you all find patience within your heart and look at your
dream and what that means for you and your spirit right now. If you are
feeling frustrated or stalled, just imagine how beautiful the outcome will be
with a little nurturing, a little time, and a lot of trust and faith.
You can do this. However, understanding that what you picture vs.
your drive is not a battle… instead, they are working in cohesion.
When you accept the place of this cohesive partnership as a means to
bringing what you have in your heart to fruition, you will see what it is you
need to see and give your human and your soul a chance to just rest in this
perfect union that will materialize by Divine timing.
When you accept the hand you have been given of the stall with grace,
the fluid outcome will materialize in way that you may or may not have planned…
and that is the beauty of life. Life is an art – it is always a work in
progress, but letting yourself flow with its energies creates the perfect
picture that can only be yours created from the heart.
Namaste.
